Today I burned everything from you. All what's left is just ashes. No more memories.

I'm about to restart everything.
There's a few things that needs to be fixed.


And i'm planning to restart a new journal.
Shit is wacked.

Current Mood: determined

I'm at home sick :[ bleh.
My nose is so stuffy,
my stomach is like fucked up.
This always happens , haha.


I finallllly found a song that explains everything and it's called the
"My Last Letter" By Heroes Of heartache for that boy. He knows. Listen.
And that's all.



but i'm doing good. really good.
My friends really make me smile.
They're really amazing.


I have to work today.
fucking karen bertalatto is gonna be there..
and i think jodi is too.. and it's akward ugh.
i hate work.


so, my sister was a bitch yesterday.
and i didn't end up getting my navel done.
So it's MOST LIKELY DONE ON WEDNESDAY.
If not, then i'm just going to murder my sister.
End of story, ha.



it's kind of weird to say that i'm actually seventeen now. weirrrd.



yeayaya,
yesterday i chilled with Mike Roias.
DId some errands.
Then went to visit KG [it wasn't akward or anything.. ha] lmao.
Then headed to the living room, mike made me spend $8 to see useless shit, and Rocky didn't even show up till 9 and we left at like 830 lmao. It was funny cause all me and mike did was make fun of everyone.
Scary keith's gf cheated on him lmfao. I feel pretty bad.

so nothing reallllly eventful.
today-work.
tomorrow-navel/hangouts?
Thurs- Craig Corey/kimmi/ and whomever.
Friday- CALLING OUT OF WORK :) / party?
Sat- Party?
Sunday- work?

i hate school
& i hate work.

:)
yay.




so that's all.
peace .

Current Mood: sick
Current Music: queens of the stone age

This one is just a public entry,
here you go, you cunt.

Weights beard down pulling me under - i look around - shadows are staring at me laughing at me - letting me know where i stand - air is taken away from my lungs - from emotions that form quite slow - and the pit of darkness consumes my every way - i'm scared but trembling keeps me sane - where along the path did i take so many wrong turns - how did i end up face down crying letting pillows catch my tears? how did i even build up the tolerance to deal with this? depression is something i don't miss - can i keep me from falling into deeper parts of this hell on earth? exposing my true colors to the world withering from these wrists - now the air has gone cold and lifeless - some one has put their hand on my head - the sensation i'm feeling is real can't explain the new way that i feel - so refreshed i could conquer the world -

pack my bags cause i'm thru with this boy

- show me heaven i'm through with this hell - and to think i would die for no reason at all stressing because of you - now i'm leaving good-bye - the gray sky has gone blue - this time i'll remain true ... to myself - for the longest time i was lost willing to kill the pain at any cost - pushing me relentlessly to the edge - the edge of it all - now my feet are touching the ground - the doors have opened wider and i can see you at a distance - you're weeping i can't see you - i guess i could care, ask you what's wrong - but i won't - i'll let you wither in your place, and from the look on your face ... you see a clearer sky -

cause we're through with all of this

- i've had enough, enough of you - i've had enough of this - tearing down these wall that block my progression - this poison we brew called love - broken hearts broken necks.



ONE YEAR LATER, HAHAH.

Leonardo Costa, this is for you:

And i can still smell you on my sheets - and now i know what it feels like to be crushed - and now i know what it feels like to be a novelty - and now i know what it feels like to be drowned - by someone you love - it's all over but i'm still choking on the lies - it's all over but i'm still choking on the lies - how can we go on living line after line - i can only stitch myself up so many times - how can all this have happened in less than a day - then again it wouldn't have been first time you threw us away - i've waited so long for someone like you - to fill my days with ruin - every smile is a painful reminder - of how i let you continue - all the tears in the world could never stop could never stop - all the heartbreaking wreckage - you did that - i love that i can't get enough but i'd be lying if i said that i didn't expect it - you've past me twice but ours eyes haven't met again - you've turned my world into remnants of blood in my sink - will you pick up the pieces again? or let them fall to ash in your pretty hands - you walk over me - it's all over - but i'm still choking on the lies - you walk all over me - the pain ensues - knives can only go so deep - you have penetrated the hardest of hearts - and now i can't help but return the favor.



"You're last year."

That's on repeat till whenever I just forget about your shitty self.

All i'm going to say is,
It's just time.

And let me tell you, I FUCKING LEARNED MY LESSON.


Respect has gone out the door for you,
and i'm content with that.
Completely.

I'm not jealous, okay maybe a little,
but remember when you're making fun of Jon because Victoria doesn't want him...
REMEMBER;
when you said Lauren doesn't even want a relationship?
And you buy HER flowers, when really she doesn't even want YOU?
I mean, that's thoughtful.
But watch what you fucking say.
She doesn't even want you.

Yeah, he bought some other girl flowers.
How am i reacting to this?
Yea, i cried. But now it's nothing to me.
Because the time has come
and it smackeed me so fucking hard in the face that it's done. Thank you. It was good while it lasted...


Last year on this day was COMPLETELY OPPOSITE.
It was snowing, this year it's sunny.
It's just all opposite.
And i don't even fucking care at this point, because honestly it's all a waste of time and breath for me!!!!


ANYFUCKINGWAYS;
i got a rose from ivo ;)
haa lmao he's mackinnnn it to me 224. always. ha.

Friend Cut.

Particularly to one person, but it's still a cut.

I cut you cause either of the following:

A. I don't give two shits about you/ I don't want you in my life,
B. I don't want you reading my livejournal,
C. Or simply because you're just a waste of space.



SO,
you're cut.
You can NO longer read my LJ unless you give me some pathetic reason why you want to read my journal.


Goodbye :)

Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: Paramore

Today is Valentines Day :]


I didn't go to school today, either ;]
Leo's at work with his mommy right now, but I have to call him @ 1.

He came by at like 7 7:30 or 8 or soemthing this morning when i was sleeping, and he gave my mommy roses to give to me, they're beautiful. They're red and white, and so far i couldn't ask for a better valentines day.

I'm making him stuff and whatnot, i just can't write it now just in case he reads it before hand!
But i love leooo so much, and i'm so lucky!

I just remember last year and how miserable i was, and now it's just an amazing feeling.. just to be loved overall.

I'm so tired, idk why.
I ate some chocolate my mommy gave me, pretty good stuff. I forgot the name of the chocolate.


I have to do a few things for valentines day in a few, i love it.
I think valentines day is one of my fav holidays because its a day you can actually have an excuse to be all mushy and shit :) Loves it.


I uploaded the two pictures of Leo and I, but they're shitty quality because my brother's camera is broken..

( LOVE )

Everyone have a good valentines day. Tell me how yours went :) ♥♥♥

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: haste the day < 3

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I write what I want.
Don't like it?
Don't add me. Easy as that.
Keep the drama away from me.
I will ONLY add you if you leave me a comment. I'm not re-adding my old friends from my old LJ. It's a new beginning.

"And I will lay to rest my ghost,
and cover my footsteps
And I will stand up straight, and walk away;
leaving it far behind."

New Livejournal.
Old LJ = Kissawaytheday
New beginning, a new year.